Monday, July 21, 2008

Catching the "I" in Pride

I caught myself saying, "I pulled off a surprise party for my boss's birthday today."

The fact of the matter is that all I did was send an email to invite people. I know better than to think that I have control over nine people's schedules, as was obvious by the fact that this was almost called off on Friday and then one person almost had to back out at the last minute today.

I actually had the gall to steal God's glory and take credit for this event after lifting up a feeble prayer last week that this event wouldn't have to be canceled. Maybe deep down I wanted this gathering to take place so that I would get the credit, though I don't recall putting those words to the panic-like feeling I encountered at the thought of having to cancel the lunch. I guess that's just another example of how feelings can be so deceiving.

To say I'm embarrassed is an understatement. I can't believe that I serve such a wonderful God. One who allowed nine people, who have probably never been in the same room before, to enjoy lunch together. One who answers my prayers, knowing that I'll steal His glory. One who forgives me when I recognize the error of my ways and ask for forgiveness.

Father God, thank You for Your mercy and forgiveness. Forgive me for failing to give You the glory. Today's events were ordained by You long before I was even born. Thank You for the joy You provided and for letting me be a part of such a wonderful celebration. Amen.


Krista said...

Ouch, friend. Your transparency is making me wiggle in my seat. Thanks for the challenge. I am glad it went well and that you made someone feel special-- you do that really well.

Anonymous said...

I do this all the time when thinking about my photography business. I have this unhealthy drive to be the best. It's a good ambition, but not when it causes me to take all the glory away from the one who gave me the talent to begin with. Miss you.

"Bluebonnet in the snow" said...

K - Sorry about the lack of warning on the wiggle factor!

T - We share so many similarities. Glad to have you as a friend and can't wait til your back in Texas!