Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Unexpected . . . Faith

I've been reading Ann Voskamp's blog for a while. Her beautiful writing compels me to. And after reading her post today, I couldn't stop thinking about the question her husband posed back to her in response to some of her questions: "So. Are we doing anything at all in our lives that requires real faith in God?"

Does that wash over you the way it did me? Did you look at your day to see if there was anything in it that required faith?

I did, and here's the mental list I initially thought of:

Going to work.
Taking care of Annie.
Having a relaxing evening at home.

Nothing out of my comfort zone, so not much faith required to get through my day. But as I pondered this, something not so obvious came to light. I had to take another look at that list and the unspoken part about it.

Going to work.
Taking care of Annie.
Having a relaxing evening at home (by myself).

Similar to Ann's son's wait for the egg to hatch, I wait. I wait on the Lord to see if He will choose to fulfill my desire to be married. And though that may seem like something I should fix on my own, I choose not to. I choose instead to wait for His provision, if that's His will for me. He made me, He sees me, and He knows me, and I believe He knows what's best for me. That's why I wait.

It's not always easy. It's not always fun. And it's not always obvious.

Kind of like faith.


Anonymous said...

I hope this for you as well, Alyssa.

Krista said...

You are waiting beautifully. Your pursuit of God is inspiring and encouraging. "He sees you."