Tuesday, January 8, 2008

One of Those Days

This morning I noticed that my vision was a little blurry as I was driving in to work. Not exactly a good time for my eyesight to fail me. I expected it to clear up. But then things got weird. I saw a sparkly circle on the carpet at work. It was somewhat of a mirage because it existed only in my mind's eye. And then I started having a blind patch and couldn't read all the words on a page.

These are the unique symptoms of a migraine aura without headache.

Thankfully, I've had one of these episodes before and wasn't scared that I was going blind. I knew I just had to wait it out. The small sparkly circle became a sparkly curve that moved from the middle of my eye to the periphery and finally disappeared after about an hour. After the aura vanished, I had only to do battle with my allergies, which have been raging ever since unseasonably warm weather arrived this weekend.

These ailments, though minor in comparison to some health issues, prevented me from being as productive as I had hoped to be today. But they also showed me that I can't do anything in my own power. Health issues force me to turn to God more quickly than just about any other struggle I face. I'm helpless against a migraine aura. I can only be still and wait. Something that I seldom practice of my own accord.

Father God, thank You for restoring my health and my focus on You. Thank You that Your mercies are new every morning. I need them more than I tend to think I do.

2 comments:

Renae said...

I understand. Not the migraine aura part, but the helpless part. Wasn't it Paul who wrote, "I must decrease so He can increase"? Sometimes, it is in our weakest moments that we can see God the most clearly - perhaps because that is when He stoops to us, scoops us into His arms, and then we find ourselves face to face with Him . . .

Thank you for sharing this. :-)

-r

Alyssa said...

R - What a beautiful word picture! Thanks for encouraging me with your comments.